I learnt a painful lesson sometime ago. To never share someone with memories.
As much as I was willing to fight for the relationship, it’s not possible to fight someone that isn’t even there to began with.
There were times, it seemed to me, I was sharing you with memories. Times when you were right there beside me but you had that distant look in your eyes. I always felt it in my heart but I didn’t show it. They say that time heals all wounds and so I naively thought that with time it would be alright – that you would realise it’s over.
But soon I realised that there was no room inside your life for me. And as much as I was willing to fight for the relationship, the battle was for you to fight. Not me.
That was when I knew that I had to have it all or nothing at all. I didn’t want to share you, or anyone else, with memories anymore.
I learnt a painful lesson. A lesson that will stick with me for life.
